Where did they go??

I used to wake up at night, almost every night, with cramps and spasms. This has all but vanished. They haven't gone completely but compared to what it used to be like it's like nothing is wrong sometimes. My headaches aren't anywhere near as bad as they were. I'm not a person to take pills for the hell of it so every headache I used to just grin and bear until it passed, but these days I'm not expecting my mid-morning apres-steroid headache.

What I'm trying to say here is that the most uncomfortable part of this illness seems to have passed. Every day I'm still fully aware of having C.I.D.P. but through careful medical planing and a bit of physio I'm feeling so much better.

All of that makes me wonder where all the pain went. Is it hiding under a rock somewhere waiting to strike again when I least expect it? Will I wake up some day to find that I'm back to square one? In all probability it's unlikely but these thoughts linger in the back of my head sometimes.

If I stayed as I am now for the rest of my life without improving any more I wouldn't complain but I'm not sure how much of a head wreck it would be if I was to start getting worse again. For today I'm happy with everything, I can walk, cycle, go fishing, play my guitar and fiddle and do it all pretty much pain free and I seem to be improving bit by bit all the time. The doctor has reduced my steroid dose again and that's a good thing and the amount of time I'll be spending in hospital is set to reduce as well, instead of coming in every five weeks I'll be in every six weeks. By this time next year we reckon we could stretch that out to nine weeks. It's all good news so staying positive in my head is important and worrying about going backwards is pointless, as for where the pain is gone, I hope some big banker or bondholder has it instead.