sometimes I'm fine

This week has been a mixed week. It seems one day I feel okay and the next I feel rubbish. I don't really know why, my normal routine hasn't changed all that much. On saturday I felt really bad and to make it worse I was stuck inside all day and I really wanted to go out, every time I got ready to go the clouds would blacken and the rain would drop down as if it was mocking me. I don't mind rain normally but rain on a wheelchair when I'm in a bad mood would be a serious no-no. After putting my power-chair away and taking my coat etc. off the rain would go and the sun would creep over the clouds tempting me out again, and I fell for it three times before I gave up.

I turned my mind to do a bit of recording and again my plan was turned inside out. The mic and laptop were set up and my recording program was ready to go when a good friend called by, not that I wasn't delighted to see him and his wife but it threw my train of thought for a bit. When I did get back to work, after they left, some rotten little brat outside my window had found a stick and a can and spent a half hour or more hitting one off the other up and down the street. I'll never chastise a six year old for having fun so I just sat there and waited for him to finish, I'm just glad I live in a place where kids that young can still play safely outside. Then I got a brainwave, seeing as my mic was picking up hie stick and can song then maybe I should record the sound and use it in a song. I opened the window, put the mic up, hit record and the little brat stopped and followed the sound of his mum instead calling him for supper, I was beaten again. I get days like this, I reckon everyone does, I just try to grin and bear it.

I did a bunch of physio earlier in the week and as much as I enjoy excercise and sport, this really knocked me on my backside. The kind of physio I do is supposed to do this so it was no surprise, but when I was feeling bad to start with it was difficult to get my head straight to do anything else constructive done. I got a bit of recording done but it was crap so I binned it. I wrote some lyrics and they weren't much good for anything I'm working on now so they got filled under 'later'. I did cook some pretty good meals but I kinda have to eat and I like good food, fresh and seasonal.

The week wasn't a dead loss or anything but I feel I could have done more. Last night I went to a Rambling House session in Colemans Well and sang a few songs. I'd never done a rambling house before and I can honestly say I had a ball. I heard a bunch of songs that I hadn't heard in years and that's never a bad thing. I'm going out tonight to play a bit of music so this week is starting good and I have tickets for Mick Hanly on saturday night and that's going to be great. So it's a case of roll on the summer and bring on the good times.